The Naming of Aria Iolani

September 29, 2018September 30, 2018 / Anne (Grace is my Superhero) / 7 Comments

It was an early Sunday morning in July. Most of the family was still in bed. I was on the computer Googling “names meaning eagle” and hoping no one would come down the stairs and see what I was doing.

I felt rather silly, looking up baby names. I was 41. I already had 9 beautiful children. I had no reason to think that I would ever be blessed with another one. I would say from time to time, “I think I would like to have a baby in my 40s.” My husband would always respond, “You’re crazy.”

I felt a little crazy just then, but I felt compelled to do it. I just had to know what names were out there that meant “eagle.” Over the past few years God had used many amazing encounters to convince me that I was meant to be an eagle. I was beginning to let go of who I thought I was (a quiet girl who was deathly afraid of heights) and believe who God made me to be.

I found many names that fit the bill. However, I needed an “A” name for a girl and a “C” name for a boy to follow the pattern of all our other children. I could find no suitable boy name, try as I might! A girl’s name struck me as though it were jumping off the computer screen .

Aria Iolani

Aria:

Hebrew from Ariel – lion or lioness of God

Italian – air, melody

Sanskrit and Persian – noble, honorable

Teutonic – intelligence of an eagle

Iolani (ee-oh-lahn-ee):

Hawaiian – hawk of royalty, bird of heaven, to soar like an eagle

How perfect! How beautiful! A dream had been planted in my heart; a tiny seed carrying the perfect name. A dream that I would one day have a daughter who would bear this name. A daughter who would have the vision and intelligence of an eagle. A daughter who would know her identity from the womb. She would not have to live 40 years on the ground before it began to dawn on her…she was meant to FLY!

A few months later, in December, I found that I was pregnant. The revelation came at a time I didn’t expect. It didn’t seem like the right time for another baby. But …perhaps this dream in my heart had been a dream in God’s heart all along. Perhaps now was THE TIME!

My oldest daughter, Areli, loved the girl’s name I had found! The boys did not like it, mostly because they wanted the baby to be a boy. Chris liked the named “Aria” but wasn’t sure about “Iolani.” It was too hard for him to remember and pronounce correctly, and he thought it would difficult for others as well.

I checked out a bunch of books from the library about Hawaii since Areli was planning on going there for school in the next year or so. I discovered that there is an Iolani Palace in Hawaii, the only royal palace in the United States. That settled it. “Iolani” was THE middle name!

I was excited but told myself that this baby could easily be a boy. Soon sickness and other pregnancy discomforts (that I had never experienced before) came upon me. The dream of “Aria Iolani” was still a lovely thought, but it was overpowered by the thoughts of a victim pleading for release from her prison. I understood that all that was going on in my spirit was being experienced by my baby’s spirit as well. I tried to be thankful and upbeat. I tried to speak over my baby love and peace and truth. Half the time I doubted the truth myself. That God really loved me and that someday I would feel good again.

Many fears started to plague my mind. What if there was something wrong with this baby? What if there was something wrong with my body? And the worst fear of all, what if this child had a chromosomal abnormality like Ashlyn had? I love Ashlyn and I am still amazed that God would trust us with such a special child. Still, I always thought that having two special children would be absolutely too much to handle, and I would break under the strain of it. With each pregnancy there has been a small chance, and each time this fear rears its ugly head. This pregnancy the fear was worse than usual, almost suffocating me at times.

I didn’t go to church for two months. Finally I was feeling well enough to go to a Sunday morning service. As I entered the balcony of the sanctuary, I heard the Helsers leading worship. I felt the sweet presence of God, and I longed to linger there forever! They were singing, “Mt. Zion.”

We have come to Mount Zion

City of the living God

Heavenly Jerusalem

By his blood we have come

I felt God’s presence. I felt peace and joy. I felt safety and security. The fears dissipated. Hope started rising. This is where I should have been living this whole time. This is where I wanted my baby to live, even in the womb. I felt sad that I had been such a bad mother so far. I had tried to abide in the presence of God in my own home. But most of the time I just felt sick and discouraged.

Here at church I could feel His presence, as though Mount Zion was a reality I was dwelling in. The song continued:

Thousands of angels dance around his throne

Thousands more sing out new songs

And elders throw their crowns down

As all of heaven sings out

“Baby, this is where you are to live all the time,” I told the precious little one.

“I know, mama.”

I heard a sweet little girl’s voice say these words. At least I thought it sounded like a girl. I knew it was my baby. This was very unexpected and unusual. It wasn’t said in a sassy voice as if to imply that I was being dumb for thinking my baby didn’t already know this.

It was said in a comforting voice as if to say, “Mama, you worry too much. I am just fine. I just recently came to you from heaven. I could see those angels in person, and I can see them still. I am still surrounded by His presence.”

I felt more at peace than I had in a long time. My baby was more aware of spiritual realities than I was. She was most definitely an amazing child. I began to remember all the fears I had confronted during previous pregnancies. One by one those fears had fallen by the wayside, replace by peace. Almost across board just the opposite had proven to be true.

I didn’t need to worry about this baby’s health, well-being, or intelligence. She (or possibly he, I had to remind myself) was extraordinary…a super baby! She (or he) had just spoken to me from the womb for goodness sake!

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On March 30^th we had an ultrasound that revealed a perfect and beautiful baby girl! My dream was growing inside me.

Aria Iolani

About four weeks before my due date, Aria dropped. She was sitting low and I was uncomfortable.

“At least she is head down and in the right position. She is getting ready to be born, and it won’t be long now,” I thought.

Each week she dropped a little lower. Each week I was more uncomfortable. I kept having signs that labor was near, but no real labor would come. The last week, each day felt exponentially worse than the day before. My due date, August 16^th came and went, and Aria became my first baby that was actually late.

Finally my water broke the night of August 17^th. The next day labor still had not started, but my homebirth midwife came over to check on me. I was already dilated to 5 cm and Aria was at +3 station. The midwife said that babies normally are not that low unless the mom was already in labor. We both thought that once labor started, Aria would be born quickly. We were wrong.

Labor finally began around 3pm on August 18^th but it progressed very slowly. I was listening to worship music, scriptures, and birth affirmations. I was enjoying God’s presence. He was speaking to me and showing me visions of Himself. Before I knew it, it was evening. I didn’t feel like I was in transition even though I was dilated to 10.

Then it got difficult. I never really had a difficult labor, so it was a new experience. Aria was so close to being born, yet she wasn’t being born! I am sure it was difficult for her too, but her heart-rate remained steady. Finally after an ambulance ride, an epidural, Pitocin, and some sleep; Aria supernaturally came into the outside world at 2:33 am on August 19, 2018. I felt no pain and consciously did nothing at all.

I simply slept and prayed, “Jesus, you do this because I can’t.”

I woke up to the slightest bit of pressure. My midwife looked under my covers to see that Aria’s head was crowning!

She was born quickly and placed in my arms. The rest of the room faded away. There was only my baby.

Aria Iolani

She was beautiful and peaceful. I noticed her eyes first. They were open wide and moving slowly back and forth, scanning and taking it all in. To me they looked like the eyes of an eagle.

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She is now six weeks old. Aria had not been as sleepy as my other newborns. She is more alert and her eyes are always looking.

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The midwife saw her at three weeks and said, “She seems more like a 6 week old that a 3 week old.” At 3 ½ weeks she began to really look at our faces and smile! The most adorable smile.

Not all is prefect of course. My recovery had been much slower this time. Aria finds it hard to just fall asleep, and she spends a good amount of time crying when she is tired. She also had the worst case of thrush I have ever seen. Then came the baby acne.

But when I nurse her and look at her baby face, I am so thankful for the chance to have her as a daughter, my 10^th child.

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What a rare and precious jewel. When I prayed for her during my difficult pregnancy, God showed me so clearly that Aria is vitally important – to this family, to this world, and to eternity. She was not an extra baby or an optional baby. She NEEDED to be here. Just like every single baby ever to be conceived.

Of course to me Aria is amazing! Brilliant, observant, and born to fly.

Aria Iolani

A dream come true.

Areli’s Adventure in Australia

July 18, 2016July 18, 2016 / Anne (Grace is my Superhero) / Leave a comment

Areli says that she is not a writer, so I will try to tell her story as best I can. The real beauty of this article will be all the wonderful photos that Areli was able to capture on her Australian Adventure.

This adventure began back in September of 2015. This was when the youth leaders, Ben and Dylan called a meeting for anyone interested in going on the summer missions trip. I took Areli, who was so excited to finally get the opportunity to try missions. I was thrilled as well, having done 5 trips as a young woman. I understood how impactful and life changing they are. We learned at the meeting that the destination of the trip had not yet been determined, but it would probably be somewhere in Africa, Asia, or Europe. Oh my…that is most of the world…and so very far from home.

Areli jumped into the unknown with two feet; praying, seeking God, and participating in fund-raising events.

Sometime around February, the exact location had been chosen…rather revealed by God, and it wasn’t Africa, Asia, or Europe.

It was Australia!

Someone had been praying for Dylan and prophesied to him that he would lead a team to Australia. Then one of the girls on the team had a dream that they were all on a beach in Australia helping a man in a red shirt. When the leaders shared this dream with their contact in Australia, Nick from Kenmore Baptist church, Nick said that they had a group in their church that wore red shirts! They were called “The Red Frogs” and they ministered to young adults. So Australia it was!

It turned out that the only time that the team could travel to the “land down under” was the perfect time to be there. It was during their winter break when the Kenmore Baptist Church ran the Kids Holiday Club. This ministered to 380 children, many of whom were unchurched children whose parents needed a safe place for them to be while they were at work. Also, Georgian and Winnie Banov just happened to be at Glory City Church in Brisbane during this time as well! I love how God works out the perfect place at the perfect time.

The team (which consisted of two guy leaders, two women leaders, 16 high school girls, and three high school boys) dove into training almost every weekend starting in April. They had homework each week, to read a chapter of Translating God by Shawn Bolz and complete the workbook. This included many practical applications such as giving encouraging words to three people during the week. I highly recommend this book. I have only read three chapters of it so far and I have encountered revelations from God’s heart that have opened my heart and mind with each chapter!

They practiced listening to God, praying and prophesying over each other, and praying and prophesying over strangers. They practiced treasure hunting at Lancaster’s First Friday. Areli and a group of girls prayed for God to give them clues that would lead them to His special treasure (a person who He wanted them to share His love with). One of the girls got an impression in her mind of the name Angelica. Areli decided to purchase a bunch of flowers and they started giving flowers away while they searched for Angelica. It was time to return and they hadn’t found her, so Jessica yelled out, “Angelica!”

A girl close to them turned around and said in shock and amazement, “How did you know my name?”

“God loves you and he knows your name,” Andrea said. They gave her their very last rose and Angelica walked away still marveling at the fact that God had called her out of the crowd!

Chris and I were a bit concerned about the $3,000 Areli needed for her trip. “Where God guides, He always provides,” we used to say in YWAM, and Areli didn’t seem worried as she enjoyed preparing for her trip. Almost immediately Areli received generous donations that covered her entire trip!

My mother’s heart was overwhelmed and undone, and I felt God say, “None of Areli’s faithfulness has gone unnoticed by me.”

You see, Areli works in the home day after day cooking, cleaning, doing laundry, and taking care of her special needs sister and her younger siblings. She almost always has a good attitude. If she worked out of the home doing the same things, she would have quite a nest egg by now! She pours herself out every day for her family, and now her trip was covered!

She still needed spending money, some new clothes, and her dream was to get a new, better camera to satisfy her passion for photography. Now we felt confident that God would provide all of those needs as well…and He did!

Quickly the time for the most anticipated trip had arrived. The team was traveling on Air Canada, and I downloaded the App so I could follow their progress across the world and pray for them. Throughout the day on Wednesday, June 29^th, I saw that their first flight out of Baltimore was being delayed again and again. They finally took off, but their connecting flight in Toronto was supposed to be leaving as they were descending into the Toronto airport. Air Canada held the airplane as the missions team RAN through the airport and security as fast as they could. They made it!

After a 5 hour flight to Vancouver and a 14 hour flight to Brisbane, they were there…and they had lost Thursday. It was now Friday morning even though their bodies were ready for bed. They decided that the best way to beat the jet lag was to stay awake all day and spend it at the beach, the Gold Coast Beach. It was a little cooler there (sixties) being the dead of winter, but it was a lovely day! They even found some strangers to pray for and encourage.

On Saturday the team visited the Byron Bay Light House and explored and treasure hunted. Areli’s group got the clue, “Bumble Bee” but they weren’t sure what that meant. Later in the day, they saw a girl dressed in yellow and black and talked with her and prayed for her.

Sunday morning the team had to pack up because they were leaving the basic motel where they had been staying. The leaders were preparing the students for the worse, hinting that they would probably be roughing it in conditions far inferior to the motel. Areli said they were all bracing themselves for what was coming next…when they arrived at a beautiful 10 bedroom, 6 bathroom mansion! This was a “God thing” as the tennis team who had rented this house for the week had just pulled out before one of the leaders had called to inquire. And it was less expensive than the hotels in the area. It was right in the city and prefect for the youth training meeting that they would be hosting for Kenmore Baptist Church.

The team threw a surprise party for Gillian

Sunday the team went to encourage racers in the Gold Coast Marathon. Dylan and Leah actually ran the half marathon while the other team members ran part of it or cheered and encouraged people from the sidelines. Areli ended up speed walking for 6 miles and she was exhausted! The team still had energy to try some surfing.

That evening they attended the service at Kenmore Baptist Church and met a lot of the members of the church that they would be working with.

Sunday night while they were all sleeping, it was just Sunday afternoon here in PA. Chris and I decided to invite the amazing families of the missions team to our home for a cookout. Many of the parents and their other children were able to come. We had a wonderful time getting to know each other better and sharing the sketchy details that had been trickling in from our children. Some of the parents had purchased international packages for their child’s cell phones and were able to talk or Skype, but not very much. We hadn’t purchased one, but had hoped that Areli would be able to connect to Wi-Fi to message us. It turns out that in Australia Wi-Fi is not such a big deal and hard to find. Still, I had received an email and a text from one of the leaders, Amelia, who was able to send me a Picture of Areli smiling on the beach. That warmed my heart and put my mind at ease.

I thought about what faith my mom had to allow me to travel to Mexico for two weeks without hearing a word from us until we returned. I missed Areli so badly and wanted to hear from her about all that she was doing. Well, talking to the other parents was the next best thing.

Soon all the parents retired into the sitting room while the children went to shoot hoops at the park. We had peace and quiet to share amazing stories and pray for the team. There was such a sense of joyous expectation for what God was going to do. I was sad that I wasn’t able to go to Australia myself, to participate in this wonderful trip. Then I realized that I was sending my very heart and soul and DNA; all that I had taught Areli and invested into her was now being released to bless the people of Australia! One Dad mentioned how a teenager grows and comes into their own on a trip like this in a way they never could do with their parents with them. Another Dad said he saw springs of living water welling up in the floor in the middle of our prayer circle and going out to all the world. I was so encouraged by all of these things.

Monday the team spent the morning helping with the Kids Holiday Club and made some great friends.

Areli and her new friend Alexia

The afternoon was spent training the youth and young adults of the church in prophecy. The Kenmore Baptist Church was just beginning to discover the gifts of the Spirit, and most of them had not prophesied before. Prophecy is simply sharing with other people God’s heart of love for them, sometimes tapping into God’s knowledge of things that we would never know on our own. This was a key ministry and transforming for the young people of the church. Some of them heard God’s voice for the first time! Areli prayed for an Australian, Alexia who would become one of her best friends on the trip. Areli had received the word “Hope” by one of the leaders. Areli saw that Alexia was like a hope dispenser, giving hope to everyone she met. Alexia was quite moved by this revelation. (Sometime later in the trip it was clear that Alexia’s prophetic gift of bringing hope and encouragement had indeed been activated! She went from person to person on the bus, praying for all who were present. Then she continued praying for every shop with in sight. She was catching God’s vision for people and the city and she just couldn’t stop!) Following the prophetic training, they all went out treasure hunting and then returned to the house for an American style Fourth of July barbeque.

Tuesday was more Kids Holiday Club, Prophetic Training, treasure hunting and a bonfire with the church youth. Wednesday’s schedule was very similar with the treasure hunting taking place at Southbank. Areli’s group received the clue “orange” so they walked towards the orange Brisbane sign and then towards an orange bridge behind it. Once they got there, they saw a boy in an orange shirt. They tried to talk to him but he spoke no English, only Italian. This was discouraging because they had been walking for a long time and seemed to have hit a dead-end.

After walking a bit longer, Emma and Gillian both began signing the same song about a consuming fire, so “fire” was the next clue. They encountered Ben who encouraged them that the Italian guys were probably a clue that was pointing to the Italian restaurant across the street. As they walked towards the Italian restaurant, one the Australian guys said he got the clue, “woman” and “broken foot.” They saw another restaurant setting food on fire so they continued towards the fire. Then they kept going towards orange traffic cones (from the original clue) until they got to the street corner. Around the street corner they saw…a woman with a broken foot! The entire group was taken aback by this very obvious fulfillment of the clue and how many clues it had taken to get them there! They prayed for the woman and she was very blessed!

Another team was running along the streets because the time was running out. One of the Australian guys stopped running and Andrea asked him why. He said that he had an old ankle injury that prevented him from running. He had been big into riding his mountain bike in competitions. Andrea prayed for him and his ankle was miraculously healed. (Later in the trip his wrist was also healed. Another healing happened, but I am not sure exactly when so I will include it here. Emma was praying for a teen who hadn’t been able to touch his toes since a childhood skiing accident. He was healed and Emma got a video of him happily touching his toes about a thousand times!)

Thursday morning the team visited the Kai Coffee house, owned by a friend of Ben. They prayed for and encouraged this friend and his family.

After that, the team went hiking on the sunshine coast.

They attended a revival meeting in the evening.

Friday they got to attend a leadership workshop given by Banning Liebscher of Jesus Culture. That evening they went to Glory City Church for Georgian and Winnie Banov’s service. They all prayed for people at the end. Areli and a few other girls were praying for a woman and Jessica got the word “child” for that woman. She said that she and her husband had been trying to conceive a child, so the girls prayed for God to send her that very special blessing!

On Saturday the team helped Kenmore Baptist Church with a service project. They built a fence around the yard of a single mother who had two daughters. One of her daughters had special needs like our daughter Ashlyn. However, this girl couldn’t talk or walk at all. Apparently she was very good at getting around despite her disability, because there had been an incident when the neighbors noticed the girl crawling down the street while her mother was unaware in the house…hence the need for a fence! When I saw pictures of the white picket fence and the raised flower beds that they created around the yard, I was struck by how beautiful it was!

Saturday evening was spent helping Georgian and Winnie again.

Sunday morning the team went to street markets and did some shopping. They visited the Lone Pine Koala Sanctuary.

After that they had fun on at a local watering hole.

They attended the evening service at Kenmore Baptist Church. Ben and Dylan preached and the team prayed for the people. Many of the Australians went out to eat with them, and they said their tearful goodbyes. The team had gained such wonderful friends, and they all want to go back and visit.

Monday morning began their 28 hour return trip home. I was so excited the entire day and watched my phone to track their progress. Cadin was counting the hours until Areli walked through the door because he was tired of cleaning the kitchen, he said.

Areli came home at midnight, tired but happy. Over the next few weeks she has been telling us the marvelous stories. She said that the biggest thing she learned on the trip was that praying for strangers and making new friends was not as hard as she thought! The team’s love and wiliness to work impacted everyone they met. What is more, the gifts that they helped to discover and activate in the youth of the Kenmore Baptist Church will continue to transform the Brisbane area and beyond with the love of a Good Father who knows each of His children by name!

I Love My Tribe

July 14, 2014 / Anne (Grace is my Superhero) / 4 Comments

The music washes over me. It is not just melody and rhythm…it is the very atmosphere of heaven. The lights are bright, the stage is full of musicians, and I am surrounded by my tribe. Almost every Sunday morning I find myself here, in the sanctuary of Life Center and saturated with the swirling presence of God and humanity. There are so many worship leaders that share the stage, so many musicians that rotate from week to week. They are full of talent and resurrection life, and I love them all! They have birthed an abundance of CDs out of the overflow of their lives of praise.

I watch the senior pastors in the front row, boppin’ to the rockin’ music. They are in their sixties, but they enjoy the youthful expression and energy as much as anyone. They actually lead the rest of us in radical, “out of the box” thinking! They have served this church for over twenty years, and I love them! I see one of the younger worship leaders, passionately singing a song that he wrote; and I think about how I used to babysit him when he was a boy. I look over and see his parents in the front row, beloved pastors who raised me in the youth group; still loving, still serving, still standing for all that is true.

Some folks are out of their seats, dancing. Some are swaying to the music. Others are sitting with their eyes closed. Others are kneeling on the floor. My teenage daughter is up front, worshipping with her friends. I observe many gray heads in the crowd, faces lined with wisdom and love. I see parents holding their little ones. I see children twirling scarves and prancing on bare feet. Life is always bursting forth at Life Center. There are more pregnant women than I can keep track of, and I love them all! I long to be able to tell each one of them how gorgeous they are and how precious they are to God, carrying His little children of promise!

I notice women running to each other in joyful reunions, laughing and hugging. I see people spontaneously begin to pray for the person next to them, passion and concern on their faces. I see others exchanging gifts or notes.

It is time for the offering and one of the “newer” pastors takes the microphone. He and his family have become so precious to me. Every time I see him take the stage, I am alert with anticipation. I know that some stunning revelation will spill from his lips that will rock the way I see the world.

The music subsides and there are announcements of births and deaths; family business that herald joy and tears all at the same time. How we each know that thrill and that pain, and how we each long to share those with our brothers and sisters. I walk to the back of the sanctuary during the meet and greet time, and I am enveloped in a warm and healing hug by a beautiful black mama.

“Look at you! You’re beautiful! Just beautiful!” she always says to me with her eyes shining and her amazing, white smile blazing. She is the beauty! I wish I could describe the indescribable, how dark and lovely she is…but her beauty is so deep and so true, I am at a loss for words.

It is time for the message and another pastor comes up. He and his wife are treasures to me, having led countless youth events, missions trips and prayer times that I was apart of. We have even lived with them a couple of times. Some folks in the crowd are a little confused because he talks too fast, as though he has 4 hours worth of revelation to impart in 45 minutes. Chris and I are fluent in “speed talk” since we grew up under his tutelage, and we just chuckle to ourselves. In his message, he talks about a mission trip that he led 20 years ago. I was part of that trip, and how I cherish those memories!

After the service, I hug my dear and longtime friends. I greet friends I grew up with and friends who were in my wedding. I talk with my children’s pastor, who I went to school with. I see more recent friends, who have quickly taken residence in my heart. I identify new acquaintances as well. I notice many fresh faces and hope to call them my friends someday too. So many personalities, so many gifts, so many stories, so many ways that God reveals Himself to me; represented by these precious people.

“I love my tribe!” I always think to myself on a Sunday morning. The love wells up within me, along with pride. I love my tribe! There are children of God all over this earth, in different denominations, different countries, varying cultures and traditions. But I am so glad that my boundary lines have fallen here, at Life Center. I started coming to this church in 1989, when it was meeting in the old casket factory. My husband Chris started coming earlier than that, in 1985. We left for a time and moved to Colorado Springs. In the eight years we were there, we couldn’t put our roots down, no matter how hard we tried. Now we are back in our promised land, surrounded by family. How good it feels to watch our family tree grow tall and strong with a wide trunk and thick bark, an oak of righteousness, a planting for the display of His splendor.

How glorious it feels to let our roots descend into the rich and fertile soil of Central Pennsylvania! How refreshing to drink the deep, deep waters. How thirsty we had been for those waters!

There are wonderful people of God all over the world, but this family is mine…my clan…my tribe. I am so glad! How I love my tribe!

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The Naming of Aria Iolani

Aria Iolani

Aria: